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4.11.08 - notice | お知らせ
my new website can be found by going to http://www.cfujikawa.com. this page will remain here for those who want to see my adventures in japan. see you over on the new page!
新しいウェブページはここです：http://www.cfujikawa.com 日本のアドベンチャーブログとか写真はまだこのサイトに残しときます。では、そっちでね！
2.7.08 - thank you | ありがとう | mahalo
sorry for the tardiness of this update. i hope everyone's doing well. i'm still getting readjusted to life back in the states, but i'm doing fine. i miss everyone a lot though.
遅くなってごめんなさい。皆元気ですか？ぼくはまだアメリカの生活に調節してるけど、元気にしてるよ。皆本当に i miss you だよ！
words can't express how i feel. words aren't enough to express my gratitude. words aren't strong enough to express my love. yet, on this screen, i will try and do my best to put into words the things i couldn't get out of my mouth before leaving japan... in both english & japanese.
ぼくの気持ちはただ言葉で伝えない。ぼくが感じてる思い出、感謝、と愛をちゃんと伝いたいけど、言葉は足りない。でも、できるだけこのスクリーンで口から出てこなかった言葉を伝いたいっと思ってる。がんばってバイリンガルで書くけど、変な日本語だったらごめんなさい。
i came to tokyo ready for new adventures. it was fun and exciting, but it was also my first time living away from home, and i ran into a lot of barriers. i faced a lot of challenges, and went through times of lonliness. but i knew god had a purpose for me, and i knew he wanted to stretch me in my abilities, experiences, and in my faith.
東京に来て新しいアドベンチャを始めた。すごく楽しかった。でも、一人暮らしは始めてだったので色々壁もあった。色々なチャレンジあったし寂しいときもあった。でも、神様はぼくの能力、経験、と信仰を伸ばすために日本へ連れてくれたってわかってた。
god took care of me by providing me with a wonderful family of brothers and sisters at new hope. and that alone showed me just how much god cares for me and wants to protect me. as i learned to trust him more, i was able to surrender my will and my desires. as i let go of the things that i was holding on to, god allowed me to really make tokyo my "home".
神様はちゃんと守ってくれた。ニューホープ東京で素晴らしい家族を与えてくれた。それだけで神様の愛と守りで感動した。どんどんトラストしたら色々降伏できた。そうして神様が本当に東京をぼくの「ホーム」にしてくれた。
you accepted me for who i am, and you welcomed me into your family. you took this guy who likes to hang out with youth, and allowed me to be a part of "blaze". you took this laid-back, chill guy and allowed me to be a part of the crazyness that is "xtreme". you took this guy who loves bbq, and allowed me to teach you the "core values" of bbq'ing. you took this musically illiterate guy who just likes to worship, and allowed me the honor of leading you in worship.
私のすべてを認めてくれてあなたの家族に歓迎してくれた。ティーンズと遊ぶのが好きなぼくを「blaze」に参加させてくれた。もともとゆっくりするの好きのぼくを「xtreme」の仲間に入れてくれた．肉の好きのぼくbbqの”コアーバリュー”を教師させてくれた。楽譜を読めない、ただワーシップが好きのぼくを皆さんの前でワーシップリードさせてくれた。
you've showed me what it means to be selfless. you've showed me what it means to be bold. you've showed me what it means to trust. you've showed me what it means to love. you've showed me what it means to "do church as a team".
皆はぼくに思いやりの意味を見せてくれた。皆はぼくに大胆の意味を見せてくれた。皆はぼくに信用の意味を見せてくれた。皆はぼくに愛の意味を見せてくれた。皆はぼくにDCATの意味を見せてくれた。
you've let me document your lives with a camera. you've let me use my gifts. you've trusted me to marinate your meat. you've let me be a part of the lives of you kids. you've stood with me, and behind me on your frontlines. you've served me in so many ways. you've been my dream releasers.
皆の生活をカメラで記録させてくれた。ぼくの賜物を使いさせてくれた。皆の肉をマリネートさせてくれた。皆の子供と遊べさせてくれた。ぼくと一緒にフロントラインで立ってくれた。皆にすごくお世話になりました。皆はぼくの「ドリームリリーサー」だった。 for the past 2.5 years, i've felt loved, learned how to love, and fallen in love. for the past 2.5 years tokyo has been my home. for the past 2.5 years, i have been a part of your families. and like i said earlier, there are no words that can express my thankfulness. as i start this new chapter in my life, i take with me everything i learned up until now. and with that, i have nothing but the warmest gratitude from the bottom of my heart. i have no doubt our lives will cross again, so unitl next time...
この二年半、愛を感じた、愛する方を習った、と恋に落ちた。この二年半、東京はぼくの「ホーム」になりました。この二年半、皆の家族に入れさせてくれた。前言ったけど、感謝がありすぎて言葉が足りない。これから新しいチャプターを始めるけど、今まで学んだ全てを守って行きます。だから、心から本当にありがとうございました！絶対またあえるから、とりあえず、「またね！」
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1.23.08 - 1 week
as i deal with an assortment of emotions, it's still hard to believe i'm leaving in a week. i have so much to do, with so little time. i think part of me is still in denial . . . that just can't be helped. so, as i try and wrap up my time here, i'm feeling a little lost and overwhelmed. please pray for me.
引っ越し準備、心の準備 . . . いろいろあるので、この最後の週祈って下さい。ありがとうございます。
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i will run to you
darlene zschech (hillsong)
your eyes is on the sparrow
and your hand, it confoms me
from the ends of the earth
to the depths of my heart
let you mercy and strength be seen
you call me to your purpose
as angels understand
for your glory
may you draw all men
as your love and grace demands
and i will run to you
to your words of truth
not by might, not by power
but by the spirit of god
yes, i will run the race
'til i see your face
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1.08.08 - countdown
明けましておめでとう！今年もよろしくお願いします！ happy new year everyone! i hope this year brings you many blessings! it was nice having a long vacation... but it flew by waaaay too fast. well, time flies when you're having fun! of course it was hard coming back to work, but i think the hardest part was realizing that my time here is hitting the last stretch.
yes, my time in tokyo is coming to a close. i came here wonderring what god had in store for me in japan. i came here wanting to be challenged and stretched. i knew it would be hard for me live here... but two and a half years later, it seams even harder to leave. i've experienced things i've never imagined. i've struggled through challenges that have helped me grow. i've been accepted as a part of society, and have felt the deep culture that is woven into my dna. i've discovered things that i excel at, and things i abolutely suck at. and i owe it to a dependence on god, and his perfect plan & timing.
there's a part of me that's excited to be back, but forgive me if i don't convey those feelings. because as much as i wish i could say, "i can't wait to be back in cali," the truth is... i don't want to leave. tokyo has been my home for 2.5 years, and it's not easy letting go.
i understand god has a new chapter planned for my life, new adventures, new journeys. so i need to trust in his timing... his plan... and him. ready or not, the countdown to my departure has started... it's just my prayer that i can finish strong.
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here in my life
mia fieldes (hillsong)
i have never walked on water
felt the waves beneath my feet
but at your word lord
i receive your faith
to walk on oceans deep
and i remember how you found me
in that very same place
all my failing surely would have drowned me
but you made a way
you are my freedom
jesus you're the reason
i'm kneeling again at your throne
where would i be without you here in my life
here in my life
you have said that all the heavens
sing for joy at one who finds
the way to freedom
truth of jesus
bought from death into his life and i remember how you saw me
through the eyes of your grace
and though the cost was your beloved for me
still you made a way
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